magic showed me that reality isn’t what we take it to be
hinduism revealed to me that humanity isn’t what we think it is
buddhism taught me that peace comes from Existence rather than beliefs
tantra instilled in me an acceptance of all dualities
taoism reminded me that harmony has no form but every form and formlessness
sufism awakened my heart that had long slept since childhood
i cannot imagine my world without any of these influences
take your pick
you really can’t go wrong
I Am The Beast I Worship.
That awkward moment when you have a heart to heart catch up talk with your grandma about your life and she asks, “Are you really as happy as you sound?”
…and then you realize you actually are. More than you’ve ever been. <3
And then you think, “Wow…. Did I really seem that sad all the time!? …Damn…”
In many ways, Jesus and Buddha were talking about the same experience of human transformation.
Suffering is the teacher of transformation for both of them. It is the only thing strong enough to grab our attention and defeat the ego. Suffering, for me, is whenever we are not in control. It is our opposition to the moment, our inner resistance that says, “I don’t want it to be this way.” The ego is always trying to control reality and therefore it is invariably suffering, because reality is never fully what we want.
Jesus’ suffering on the cross was a correct diagnosis and revelation of the human dilemma. It was an invitation to enter into solidarity with the pain of the world, and our own pain. Lady Julian of Norwich understood it so well, as if to say, “There is only one suffering and we all share in it.” That is the way all mystics eventually see it. That is the way the Buddha saw it. There is only one suffering, and for Christians Jesus personified that surrender to that cosmic mystery—a “non-resistance” to reality until we learn its deepest lessons. The ultimate lesson is always resurrection."
After having a serious conversation about my life, my choices, and blahblahblah.....
- Mom: ...Just quit being so stubborn...
- Me: ...no.
Personal to do list after I graduate next week…
- Clean room.
- Get oil change & clean car.
- Eat healthier again.
- Do yoga regularly again.
- Stop smoking……… AGAIN.
- Start writing again/work on my story in progress.
- Get back into photography.
- Catch up on reading.
- Catch up on my Netflix queue.
And while all of this is happening.
- Intern with Kely McClung.
- Look out for more job opportunities pertaining film.
- Deal with important family affairs.
- Still work at the pawn shop, at this point, to gather enough money so I can eventually leave.
Being so close to starting a new chapter in my life has awaken a new drive in me.
Let’s do this shit.